Monthly Archives: December 2009

Hello world!

Let me tell you a little bit about who I am. I am a twenty three year old college student who will be graduating one year from now, in December 2010 in International Economic and Political Development. I love being outdoors, feeling free. I would love to get up to the top of a mountain, travel to other countries and hike in to meet groups of people who live on the outskirts of nowhere. I have ALWAYS ALWAYS loved biking. I love singing and I love dancing, but none of that matters because I am obese.

I do not want to make excuses for it because it is my fault, but I have various health problems that have made it more difficult for me to lose weight. Hypothyroidism and Asthma.

The WAKE UP CALL came this winter. I ride my bike every day to classes, and not only is it extremely hard to ride it at my size, I realized that if I gain another 20 pounds (which is the same as what I have gained in the last two years of simply ignoring the problem) I will be too heavy for my Schwinn. I will not let this happen!

To make matters worse, I do not feel comfortable doing either of my passions, singing or dancing. I used to be at least talented at learning to dance. I was also in a show choir several years ago, before I started to pack on the pounds.

I don’t know what it is to feel skinny. I don’t know what I look like at my ‘healthy weight’. Based on my family history, I am at risk for health problems including heart problems and diabetes. I am pretty, but I am so sick of being the pretty fat girl in groups of friends. I want to know what it is to take someone’s breath away because I look beautiful in my evening gown! I want to love how I look! I want people to see past the blubber and know who I am on the inside, and the only way that seems possible is to get rid of the fat.

So this is the plan. I will learn to live a healthier lifestyle. I will stop eating so close to bedtime. I will not mindlessly snack. I will make it to the gym even when I am having trouble finding time in my life. I will take time to cook so that I don’t eat unhealthy fast food, and when I go for fast food it will be something healthy like a subway turkey sandwich.

I have at least 90 pounds to lose. I have lost six this week, for a total of 84 still left to go. So lets get to it! 🙂