Let me tell you a little bit about who I am. I am a woman (currently 29 in 2015) I love being outdoors, feeling free. I would love to get up to the top of a mountain, travel to other countries and hike in to meet groups of people who live on the outskirts of nowhere. I have ALWAYS ALWAYS loved biking. I love singing and I love dancing, but none of that matters because I am obese.

I do not want to make excuses for it because it is my fault, but I have various health problems that have made it more difficult for me to lose weight. Hypothyroidism and Asthma.

The WAKE UP CALL came the winter of 2010. I rode my bike every day to classes, and not only was it extremely hard to ride it at my level of unfitness, I realized that if I gain another 20 pounds (which is the same as what I have gained in the last two years of simply ignoring the problem) I will be too heavy for my Schwinn. I was not going to let this happen!

To make matters worse, I did not feel comfortable doing either of my passions, singing or dancing. I used to be at least talented at learning to dance. I was also in a show choir several years ago, before I started to pack on the pounds.

I don’t know what it is to be skinny(although since I originally wrote this, I feel so comfortable in my own skin that I often forget about my weight). I don’t know what I look like at my ‘healthy weight’. Based on my family history, I am at risk for health problems including heart problems and diabetes. I am pretty, but I am so sick of being the pretty fat girl in groups of friends. I want to know what it is to take someone’s breath away because I look beautiful in my evening gown! I want to love how I look! I want people to see past the blubber and know who I am on the inside, and the only way that seems possible is to get rid of the fat.

So this is the plan. I will learn to live a healthier lifestyle. I will stop eating so close to bedtime. I will not mindlessly snack. I will make it to the gym even when I am having trouble finding time in my life. I will take time to cook so that I don’t eat unhealthy fast food, and when I go for fast food it will be something healthy like a subway turkey sandwich.

I have at least 90 pounds to lose.(down to 70 now!) So lets get to it! :-)

  1. I love your motivation and persistence. So inspiring. Thanks for the follow! Keep up the good work!

  2. Sincerely, Hil

    Girl, my heart goes out to you and all the suffering you have been feeling over the past years. You seem like such a genuinely wonderful person with a whole lot to give to the world. I’m so looking forward to following your journey to a “better” you.

    I can’t think of a better way to get help and inspiration from others as well as to share your successes and failures with blogging. Your motivation is inspiring!
    I totally believe in you and know you have your heart in the right place. It always seems worse on the inside then what it does from looking on the outside. You are so much more then what you think you are!

    Good luck and I look forward to your future writings!
    Hil xo

  3. Ahhhh, it’s such a struggle, isn’t it? Like you, I need to lose weight for health reasons. But you can do it! I think it’s wonderful that you are sharing your struggles on this blog. That takes a lot of courage! And it’s a great way to keep yourself accountable. I hope you can connect with others who share your struggles, find inspiration to keep you going in the tough times and discover a new circle of friends and supporters. Good luck. Can’t wait to read more!

    • Thank you! I learned a long time ago that in sharing my troubles I not only gained strength but could offer it to others. No need to go through these things alone. I have currently been juicing a bit (lost 12 pounds in the process.) which I will be writing about very soon!

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