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I have been struggling so much for a while now. The ups and downs of life have made it very difficult to eat correctly, and discouragement from being out of work and out of money off and on for the last year and a half has just demolished my resolve. I have eaten anything that I could get my hands on, since at times there would not have been enough without it, but I life is looking up now. God is blessing me with better job opportunities, and i will soon be able to focus my attention back to going to the gym.

I have been juicing a bit and have gone back down ten of the pounds I had allowed myself to re-gain, but I really want to get back to the gym, or to running, or biking, or some kind of exercise that will make me feel healthy and awesome: an over-comer again.

thanks to another blogger, I found another push of inspiration. You see, I hate being the fat girl at the gym. To be honest, it is the only place in my life that I actually FEEL fat. I typically only am reminded of my extra when I have to shop for new clothes, or it becomes inconvenient in some way. At the gym though, I am the one who feels out of place, or disgusting. Being fat seems to be easier than it used to be, but I have seen many people shrivel their noses in disgust when a bigger woman walks in to the room, and although I have not personally observed that attitude towards me, I am aware that I am in the same category.

I love myself, but not while I am at the gym. I am constantly reminded of my shortcomings. I love what I am trying to become at the gym. I love seeing myself reach goals and pass them. I love the discipline I feel, but I don’t look at the wall lined with mirrors, and feel that automatic pride. I have to remind myself when I look at that mirror lined wall that I am beautiful, and I am doing something important.

This is harder than I thought it would be to write. I am filled with emotion right now. Here I am, starting again. Thank you so much to the kind blogger at flintland.blogspot.com/ that wrote the following:

“Hey, Out of Shape Girl.
Yes, you. The one feigning to not see me when we cross paths on the running track. The one not even wearing sports gear, breathing heavy. You’re slow, you breathe hard and your efforts at moving forward make you cringe.

You cling shyly to the furthest corridor, sometimes making larger loops on the gravel ring by the track just so you’re not on it. You sweat so much that your hair is all wet. You rarely stay for more than 20 minutes at a time, and you look exhausted when you leave to go back home. You never talk to anyone. I’ve got something I’d like to say to you.

You are awesome.

If you’d look me in the eye only for an instant, you would notice the reverence and respect I have for you. The adventure you have started is tremendous; it leads to a better health, to renewed confidence and to a brand new kind of freedom. The gifts you will receive from running will far exceed the gigantic effort it takes you to show up here, to face your fears and to bravely set yourself in motion, in front of others.

You have already begun your transformation. You no longer accept this physical state of numbness and passivity. You have taken a difficult decision, but one that holds so much promise. Every hard breath you take is actually a tad easier than the one before, and every step is ever so slightly lighter. Each push forward leaves the former person you were in your wake, creating room for an improved version, one that is stronger, healthier and forward-looking, one who knows that anything is possible.

You’re a hero to me. And, if you’d take off the blaring headphones and put your head up for more than a second or two, you would notice that the other runners you cross, the ones that probably make you feel so inadequate, stare in awe at your determination. They, of all people, know best where you are coming from. They heard the resolutions of so many others, who vowed to pick up running and improve their health, “starting next week”. Yet, it is YOU who runs alongside, who digs from deep inside to find the strength to come here, and to come back again.

You are a runner, and no one can take that away from you. You are relentlessly moving forward. You are stronger than even you think, and you are about to be amazed by what you can do. One day, very soon, maybe tomorrow, you’ll step outside and marvel at your capabilities. You will not believe your own body, you will realize that you can do this. And a new horizon will open up for you. You are a true inspiration.

I bow to you.”

Please check out the blog to honor this kind individual. I hope this changes lives. I know it encouraged me.

Forward to Victory!!!

About this time last year, I set forth on an adventure, to teach myself how to lose weight, and do it. I wanted to be healthier, and able to enjoy life to a greater extent. I wanted to do a year end review (or year beginning review I guess) of my progress.

As far as weight goes, I have, so far lost 37 lbs. This is a total of a little over 3 lbs a month over the last year. This is less than I had planned, but any progress is good, and I have not, at any time this year, gained anything other than what is normal with fluctuations of the body.

For fitness, I am feeling so so much better. Last year, I could not jog at 4.5 mph for 30 seconds even once. Last summer, I ran a 5k with 4.5 as my average speed. I run for 30 seconds at 10, and it tires me, 1 minute at 8mph. and 3 minutes at 6, but these are not one time during a workout anymore either. These are now thrown in constantly. As soon as my heart calms below where I want it, I run again.

My asthma is nearly non existent. I notice it only once in a great while, usually when the air is bad quality at the same time as I am running.

Just a thought: I was carrying a box of 25lb cat litter upstairs, and realized I have lost 1 and 1 half times that amount almost exactly. “Man, I used to carry around this extra weight all of the time! No wonder I was low on energy!” I thought to myself.

Forward to Victory!!!

Starting the New Year Right

“If you have health, you probably will be happy, and if you have health and happiness, you have all the wealth you need, even if it is not all you want.”  ~Elbert Hubbard

Did you know that 50 percent of us will not be following our new years resolutions three weeks from the beginning of the new year? Is this a reason to say that resolutions are silly, and should not be made? Not necessarily. Maybe what we need to focus on is how we make our resolutions.

We should be making decisions on a day to day basis about what we need to change in our lives, not just wait until the beginning of each year to make some drastic change. This last year, I lost 33 lbs, gone down 5 BMI points, and dropped 2 sizes. I also have infinitely more energy! I still have work to do, which I have resolved to continue this year.

How, then, do we make resolutions that we are going to keep? We need to make resolutions that are doable: not too far reaching. We also need to make a plan of action about how to accomplish our resolutions.

For instance, saying that we are ‘going to work out more’ doesn’t give us a firm goal. We can put it off more and more until halfway through the year, and then we realize that we failed, and give up. We could also say ‘I am going to go to the gym five days a week, every week’ but if we have not been going to the gym at all, that may be too far reaching. Maybe we should start out with something like ‘I am going to go to the gym at least three days a week, and do at least 20 minutes of cardio.’ The at least leaves room for growth. We can accomplish this goal. It pushes us, and we can bite off an amount that we can chew.

When we are making our resolution, we should also make a plan of action. If we plan to attend a gym, which one? when do we plan on going? Morning? Evening? Afternoon? How do we plan to do what we plan to do? By choosing a plan of action, we enable ourselves to follow through with the things we want to do by making them achievable, and following through.

What are your resolutions? How are you going to reach them?

May God Be with you and give you strength on your journey!